Also thought a little bit more about apologizing to Josh for my relationship with his wife, actually started penning a rough draft. I'll spare you the self loathing, faux empathy and leave you with the two key points that came out through reflection.

1) "You cant talk your way out of what youve behaved yourself into." - Stephen Covey

2) "If you walked out of bed today and you had a job to go to, and a home to come back to, and someone there who cares about you, folks, the game’s over, and you’ve won." - Larry Miller

After asking for advice on whether I should finish the draft and send it with a confidant, it was pointed out that I have to be the villain. Regardless of whatever I do, I will always be the bad guy so I am just wasting time.