Addendum

Found the chat log for the evening

8:38 PM Nicole: hey has he emailed you again?
me: no
Nicole: ok, im sorry you've had to deal with this shit.
i fucked up bu getting you involved
8:39 PM i just ended it with him..
me: Wha' happen?
8:40 PM Nicole: well he found out what has been going on between us even more in depth
so he packed some of his stuff up and left
hes never trusted me
8:41 PM so don't blame yourself entirely
me: Not even
Nicole: ???
8:42 PM you know what i am just a sack of shit llike he says... so yea
i guess i don't deserve love
me: I don't blame myself at all.
That's not even true, don't accept that stuff.
8:43 PM Nicole: but i will
i know it
im going to become a recluse and be by myself
me: Nicole
Nicole: until i figure out who i am
becuase obviously i don't know anything
8:44 PM me: Well I don't know anything either.
But you aren't a piece of shit
You aren't a bad person
Nicole: yes i am
oh yea i am
me: How are you a piece of shit?
8:45 PM Explain that to me.
8:47 PM Why are you being so hard on yourself?
Nicole: i've cheated on my husband
i started to care for someone else
that makes me a piece of shit
me: It happens.
8:48 PM He wasn't there for you
Nicole: im just scared of what my family is going to think.
and financially
its going to be very tough
8:49 PM me: They'll deal with it, you're blood and he wasn't the golden child they thought he was.
You'll be okay Nicole
Nicole: no i wont
8:50 PM i'll be on my own... i feel lost
me: But you'll find your way.
We're all lost at times.
8:52 PM "The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you no matter what. No matter what happens."
8:53 PM If you're that distraught about losing him reconcile, but I think this is for the best given the portrait you painted of your home life.
If he loves you, I don't think it would be unreasonable to forgive.
8:54 PM Nicole: i dont know anymore
8:55 PM me: What do you want to know?
Nicole: i don't know
its tough saying bye... becuase were married
i can't explain it
me: I get it
8:56 PM It's saying good-bye to what you know and part of what you are.
But it's a quality of life problem.
You obviously want something he couldn't offer
8:58 PM It was never my intention to steal you away and what happened between us was something of a fluke, but not a mistake.
8:59 PM Nicole: yea youre right
9:00 PM me: No one is perfect, we're all human.
9:01 PM Nicole: i know its just hard
9:03 PM me: I warned you it was dichotomous and I thought you had worked through all this stuff with him, so shame on me I suppose.
Nicole: stop
don't blame yourself
me: I don't know what to do to console you
9:04 PM Nicole: im a complete asshole
me: I am not blaming myself.
You are not an asshole
Nicole: i fucked up so ua
i'm just a vey stupid girl
me: How so?
9:08 PM You can go to him, it's not too late
But you must understand that: http://thebobbypin.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/wrinkledpaper.jpg
9:09 PM It will just be the same, if not worse with the accusations and he may even lord this over you since he has evidence of its occurrence while his infidelity is just a vague suspicion.
9:10 PM Nicole: no we are done
like seriously
9:11 PM me: You could probably mend it when cooler heads prevail
But if it's done, it's done.
Just know that I am here for you.
9:12 PM Nicole: thanks
he told me that the reason why he couldn't get hard anymore was because he felt i was cheating with you
9:13 PM me: He probably should have come out with it so you could have worked through it as a couple then
Nicole: i guess
9:14 PM me: You we're married, you're supposed to be a team, etc.
Nicole: ?????
9:15 PM me: He's going to blame his ED on me, but keep it a secret.
Nicole: LOL
really?? did you just say that
you put a smile on my face
thanks
9:16 PM me: Yeah it's an object of shame, but if he was supposedly as close to you as he would like to pretend he shouldn't have a problem sharing it with his wife
You're supposed to be able to be ocmpletely open with your spouse
At least that's what television families have taught me.
9:17 PM Nicole: ahh. your making laugh right now..
is that supposed to be happening
me: Yeah it happens
It happened to me when I was telling my friend how depressed I was and that I was going to kill myself
9:18 PM Kept cracking wise on me.
But seriously, look on the brightside
In 59 years you'll get an iBrain
and you can have an explosive sexual adventure like Adam and Eve
9:21 PM Nicole: trye
true
man, life is hard
9:22 PM me: hey
Look on the bright side
You got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one of them
Nicole: awwww
9:24 PM can i still see you tomorrow??
me: yeah
chuck's saying 1
and he's dropping off his paintings at 4 in san jacinto
9:25 PM so 11-1 or 5-10?
Nicole: 5-10
i guess
me: k
Nicole: i don't its up to you
9:26 PM me: if you're going to be Brutus and I'm going to be Julius Caesar, please stab me in the front.
Always in the front.
Nicole: what? are you talking about
9:27 PM i won't do that to you
me: k pal
just putting it out there
9:28 PM another high light
9:29 PM no more briefs!
Nicole: briefs?
9:32 PM me: tidy whiteys
Nicole: weirdo
jk
i better let ya go
me: Want to really laugh
Nicole: you need to some sleep
9:33 PM me: That email was sent the same time we took the photo
How's that for a twilight zone
Is your room spinning?
Nicole: umm no
youre not going to delete those pictures are you?
9:34 PM i really liked them
they were cute
me: Yeah they're all gone
Call me Stalin
Nicole: are you serious
why would you do that
9:35 PM me: I am a dick
You should know this by now!
Nicole: im pissed off now
i gotta go
me: Dude
check your email
Nicole: k
9:36 PM haha
very funny
me: learn to love comedy friend
It saved my life.
9:37 PM Nicole: youre so funny
me: Not really
9:38 PM Nicole: you know what, im not very pretty
me: I try too hard, remember?
Fine, I won't beat off to these then.
I'll go find some porn
Nicole: just kidding
you need naked ones to that
me: I'll rummage through the interwebs like a raccoon.
Nicole: geex
geez
me: I've got photoshop
I can put heads on bodies.
9:39 PM Nicole: so which one is your favorite of me>
me: I've got the technology
Nicole: you are so funny
i love it
so... which one is your favorite picture of me?
9:40 PM me: of strictly you?
9:41 PM 141 or 147
love 144 though
Such a great picture
because it's totally us
Me trying to be funny and you like "Oh great, not this again"
Nicole: i sent you a picture of me
9:42 PM from my iphone
me: pretty rad
Nicole: you got already
me: yeah
digging that
Nicole: good
thanks
i suck at taking pictures
i never look good in them
9:43 PM me: "Free yourself from yourself"
Nicole: k
9:44 PM do you want another one or are you good?
i better youre pretty tired of looking at my face
me: I'll take all the kool-aid you got, lady
9:45 PM Nicole: my picture?
haha...is it ok
me: Yes it's good
I'll take more if you've got'em
9:46 PM Nicole: ill take some more
9:48 PM i just sent you one last one
me: 2 total
?
Nicole: YEA
me: OKAY!
Nicole: thats all you get
sorry
now you can show your friends who iam
9:49 PM me: "This is the girl who makes my pee-pee tingle"
9:50 PM Nicole: haha
i sent you one last one
i think we look good together
me: yea we do
Nicole: haha
9:51 PM i really like that pictture of us on your bed
its funny
me: Yeah
It's totally us
9:52 PM Nicole: for sure
9:53 PM me: So
bad news.
Nicole: what?
me: I can't get hard. My penis is really upset about breaking up your marriage.
9:54 PM Nicole: are u serious?
me: no
Just a sarcastic jerk
Nicole: haha... very funny
so do you like my pictures
am i pretty enough?
9:55 PM me: yes
yes
you're hot
get over it already
Nicole: i maybe pretty but i'm not hot... but thanks for the compliment
just kidding
me: let me just siphon the semn back into my penis then
9:56 PM Nicole: youre a liar??
me: May you never know.
Nicole: that is rediculous
9:57 PM well i hope your penis likes it
me: We'll find out tonight at 11
9:58 PM our own investigative journalist is hot on the scoop
Nicole: what?
you are crazy
me: yea
how does that feel
you love a crazy man
So who's crazy now.
9:59 PM Nicole: i guess me
10:00 PM me: I need to get something off my chest.
10:01 PM Figuratively as well as literally
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Ejaculation_Educational_Demonstration.OGG
10:02 PM Nicole: what is that supposed to mean
10:04 PM where did you go????
??
me: no where
Nicole: oh ok
10:05 PM we are a good looking couple in those pictures
me: Haha
10:06 PM Is that what counts?
Nicole: no, im just saying
me: "He beat the everliving shit out of her nightly, but man did they look good in photos together"
Nicole: hahah
that is not even true
and you know it
10:07 PM me: no
they're cute photos
you're right
Nicole: godd
10:08 PM good
its past your bedtime isn'?
i guess i should let you go
me: yeah
Nicole: i don't want to keep you up
me: giz and I are going to hit it and quit it
right quick
Nicole: umm ok
10:09 PM me: A clean prostate is a healthy prostate
Don't judge me!
Nicole: did you jerk off
10:10 PM me: Get your room raiders kit MTV girl
Nicole: huh?
did you use my pictures at least?
10:11 PM me: maybe
Nicole: its ok if you didnt
i wont judge you
me: I SAID GOOD DAY!
Nicole: haha
ok
???
are you going to bed?
10:12 PM me: YES
And I plead the fifth to all charges
Nicole: ok i'll talk to you later
me: Night
Nicole: night
10:13 PM me: You'll land on your feet.
Like a cat.
Nicole: i guess.... its the first time in a long time that i'll sleep by myself
me: but the couch
and the
were you lying?
10:14 PM Nicole: no
me: Was this a ruse?
WHAT IS THIS
IS THIS A REALITY TV SHOW?
Nicole: its weird cuz he's not here
me: AM I A CELEBRITY?
Nicole: geez
no youre not a celebrity
i'll talk to you later ok
me: Did I at least win Brewster's Millions?
Alright
Nicole: nope
bye
me: don't forget to floss
bye
Nicole: k