Her: I'm home!!

Me: Hurrah

Her: Yea I know

Me: Home, sweet, Hemet?

Her: Umm I guess... Can't wait to hang with you nighthawk

Me: Your life seems sad dragon

Her: No it doesn't because I have an awesome friend even though he may not think he's cool. But he really is

Me: Oh you

Her: Heart ya

Me: Daaaw

Her: IDK what that means

Me: Search for a picture of it

Her: Oh homer simpson... I won't say it anymore
Not unless you like it

Me: Huh? Daw is just that canned audience noise for cutesy stuff

Her: I'm retarded

Me: S'ok my first was was tarded

Her: K
Miss ya nighthawk
Did we just become bestfriends?

Me: YEP!
Were you planning on thai today or tomorrow?

Her: We cam go tomorrow if youd like

Me: I was asking because I am hungry. Your call.

Her: Tomorrow would be better because I just made me some dinner
Me: K Duder

Her: Let's fuck right now

Me: what the?

Her: I'm gonna go in the next room to fix my hair


Her: Haha it's from step brothers

Her: Go and get yourself some food

Me: Nah I'll nibble on left overs

Her: Do you kind of miss my company?

Me: Not at all this fleshlight I bought with christmas money is awesome

Her: Fine then...Well at lest I still get the real thing.
Me: it's real!

Her: Whatever
You creep

Me: You liked it.

Her: Anyways I can't have lunch with you tomorrow
Did u really get a fleshlight?

Me: Ok and no

Her: L. I can have lunch with you I just got sad so that's wht I said I couldn't

Her: Um ok

Me: Well I may not. Have kids, want to go to santa rosa plateau?

Her: Where is it at?

Me: Wildomar

Her: What time were you going to leave?

Me: when I sober up

Her: I think it might rain tomorrow

Me: Weather ruining my plans- why god why

Her: Oh shush up you don't even drink

Her: The weather channel said it was going to start back up tonight and into tomorrow

Me: Guess I'll teach the kids how to take shots

Her: LOL Ur silly
So has your sister moved in?

Me: Not yet. Late as usual

Her: Haha
So do you want me to come over

Me: Its your call. Wont it look odd to come tonight and tomorrow?

Her: Yea Ur right

Me: Ill save tg 1 more day

Her: K good. I think I'm having withdrawals

Me: We need to get you some methadone
Her: LOL

Are you high? YOU ARE HIGH!

Her: Ur so cool
Maybe? IDK?
Anywho? SO what's up?

Me: Cleaning the house and moving. Idle hands...

Her: Hmmm
Ok well I'll stop bothering so you can finish your housework wifey

Me: I don't mind. It's not intense labor.

Her: K so what are you doing for new years?

Me: Good joke

Her: Geez
I wasn't making a joke

Me: I know just not something we dullard nerds celebrate

Her: Ok well you and I are going to celebrate it on Friday

Her: Can I come by and say hi

Me: If you really want to

Her: ummm idk i'm scared

Me: I wouldn't after josh and my family is en route

Me: please bring over the adam carolla book jacket tomorrow. I want to mail them out.

Her: ok

Her: Hey so would you be interested in maybe going to see the movie Black Sawn with me?
Me: Holy fuck yes!

Her: Really?? I Wanted to go see it but Josh doesn't want to go.... When?

Me: Whenever

Her: Ok yay :)
It'll be a date

Me: Did you at least try bargaining with him? True Grit for Black Swan? I'm the fag and he doesn't like Natalie Portman?

Her: No Bargain and yes he likes Natalie
He has since star wars like I like all the pretty boys

Me: Star wars? Fag!

Her: I'll go see true grit just to see Matt Damon
Haha you like it to shut ur face

Me: 4-6. Not 1-3.
Those are horrible!

Her: Oh
Yea I hate star wars but i do like lord of the rings. and I wasn't sticking up for him.

Me: Haven't seen

Her: Ummm yea fuck off

Me: later

Her: Hmmm
Bye

Me: You would like elves...

Her: Sooo

Me: Just kidding around

Her: I know


Me: Sooooo I know you were curious abou my lasagna. My mom got take out lasagna even though there are left overs.

Her: Ok...

Me: She hated it

Her: Oh burn
Poor you


Me: Just make it until I get it right

Her: Yup
I'm bored

Me: I'm mocking you online

Her: Oh

me: I'm bored.
Look at me, I'm Nicole.
:O
New larry miller, oh happy day!

Nicole: oh shush up
i'm ---- and i'm a total loser!!!

me: When you're right, you're right.

Nicole: i know\
i miss you

me: You miss a loser, who's the real loser?

Nicole: you still
not me i miss a boy that should count for something

me: So you're a pedophile?

Nicole: oh god!! i mean't a grown ass man

me: :)

me: So Black Swan, when?

Nicole: ummmm
how about monday?
you can take me on a date

me: What? Noooooooooooo

Nicole: why?
well whenever is good for you

me: We can go monday, but it's not a date.

Nicole: why

me: Because stone cold said so

Nicole: ok

me: Hey I don't make the rules.
It's written in the book of Austin 3:16.

Nicole: ummm ok
just as friends
me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGM1o8CDLs8

me: Speaking of Portman, http://cdn.imgfave.com/image_cache/129316005682668.png
Best role of her career.

Nicole: ok

me: Someone's not enjoying this.

Nicole: not really

me: :\
Sorry

Nicole: its ok
youre starting to figure me out more and more

me: Watch out world!
I know she likes hobbits

Nicole: i like boys too...
i meant men
talk, dark and muscular men

me: Okay, so...
Why are you hanging around me?

Nicole: i'm just kidding... i like you
your different and thats why i like you soo much

me: I'm a dodo

Nicole: yea i don't care

me: Meant the bird.

Nicole: oh ok
do you like me still>

me: Yes?

Nicole: whats with the question mark... i mean like do you kind of have feelings for me like i have for you?
me: "It's complicated"

Nicole: what the?
you can't say that

me: We're facebook friends now.

Nicole: that is lame

me: Yeah
I like you, I thought of you. I postponed eating anticipating your arrival.

Nicole: youre so cute!

me: But, we're going to have to just be friends I think.

Nicole: yea
can we you know?
have sex

me: You're so coy
Hahah

Nicole: lol

me: I don't know.
I don't think so.

Nicole: we can't??

me: No, my penis is broken
I took it into the shop, but they said they couldn't fix it

Nicole: fuck off
but i want to
please???

me: I'll think about it.

Nicole: i don't want to be in a relationship with you.. i just want to fuck you

me: Love that bluntness
You're making me moist.

Nicole: its the truth
i just want to be fuck buddies... but still be friends.. even after were done having sex
me: We'll see.

Nicole: oh god
just say yes already
its that easy

me: Did he at least get to bang Amber?
And if I say no?

Nicole: this weekend
idk maybe
well if you say no well then i'll have to respect that

Nicole: i think i'm making you uncomfortable.. I'll stop
sorry for being so horrible

me: You're not horrible and I am not uncomfortable.
I am still weighing it out

Nicole: youre funny
i think you should live alittle... Remember treat it like smoking.... i don't think we're done with what we are doing can't it last just alittle longer before we completely stop fooling around?

me: There are 20 cigarettes per pack.
We've smoked 6 by my count.

Nicole: ok
so once were done with the pack then were done for good.. Agreed?

me: mmmkay

Nicole: k
and no youre not a pushover

me: I've been thinking about that the past 2 days.
Thought about buying a pack.

Nicole: you thought about taking up smoking? or sex?

me: thought about buying a pack of cigarettes to create a token economy

Nicole: gross
i've smoked a couple of times
in the marine corps in iraq

me: Smoking is lame

Nicole: yea i know i used to do it occassionally

me: I was going to buy a pack to gift to you to use as tokens for sex.
To put the ball in your court.

Nicole: oh

me: To defer responsibility for my sexuality.

Nicole: thats funny
well i want to have sex with you

me: The feeling is mutual

Nicole: good
it feels real good
like the last time we did you really got into it

me: Because I imagined I was having sex with Jeremy Clarkson
"This is the best sex...In the world."

Nicole: :'(

me: Just kidding louver

Nicole: k
it was a amazing

me: You're too much

Nicole: like when you go down on me and finger me
k it was just ok

me: Haha

Nicole: is that better for you

me: It was a warm lunch.
I mean I ordered the best they had, and it was just... okay
The staff gave it a good 35%

Nicole: your such a doucher

me: I can't even.
I have nothing to douche.

Nicole: now after sex i'm gonna tell you that you did a mediocre job

me: I'm going to slap you
I would probably be so crushed

Nicole: what? haha

me: Just because I am trying so hard

Nicole: i guess it doesnt work for sex
haha

me: It wouldn't show, but it would hurt me.
I would internalize it

Nicole: awww
youre so cute\

Me: Probably as close to a peak as I had

Nicole: lol
thats actually funny
why did you put the lol on it you jerl

me: Because I had a ridiculous expression

Nicole: oh
ok

me: Oughta make you wet.

Nicole: i don't know what to say.....


Nicole: you look like a conpletely different person... i think you should grow your hair out that long again
you still have that cute nose though

me: Sirry
So what's up with you?
How was your family?

Nicole: good they wanted us to stay till the 1st...
but we decided to come back becuase josh hates driving all that way

me: But you were already there?

Nicole: he wanted to come back home the second day we were there
he gets very angry sometimes
with me at least

me: Not enough COD?

Nicole: josh thinks your a serial killer

me: I am.

Nicole: thats not funny

me: Based on what?
having no life?

Nicole: idk he just thinks that... i think so
beucase you live at home
but idk??

me: It's not by choice, well... that's not half right.

Nicole: he just feels threatened by you

me: I wonder why

Nicole: i don't know...
well if you wanted to kill me i think you would;ve done it by now

me: Probably because I pay attention to you. Like ethnic food.
No
It's usually after I've known the person for a full year.
You've gotta couple more months before I kill again.
I am not gay, I am not a serial killer.

Nicole: i know
at least i think

me: I am just an awkward dude who lives at home because I got burned out testing shitty video games for Sony. Didn't want to collect unemployment and decided to go back to college.
I resumed working on IGETC/CSUGE transfer pattern while figuring out what I wanted to do

Nicole: lol
ok i trust you
i always have though

me: So I mean yeah I definitely understand the serial killer thing, but I don't think I am nearly as awkward as I could be or was.
But i dunno
I am still the one laughing to things inside my head.

Nicole: i do the same thing...laugh at things in side of my head too
yea i mean i can understand where that awkwardness comes from since all you did what chat with people online.
i never really did that as a teenager. i did cheer and hung out with my friends that i went to church with but that was it
never drank or had sex either
i was kind of a dork in a way
and played the piano
my parents never let me go out with my friends very often. the only friend i really had was Cristyna and she's dead now.
so i don't have anyone to call my best friends besides josh i guess... but we argue alot and stoff
stuff
see like right now he's pissed at me for talking to you and he just left

me: Yeah, maybe we shouldn't be friends or something.

Nicole: naww.
i want to be friends.. i resent him alot and it's been like that for awhile
i've even asked for a divorce but he won't give me one
anyways sorry.....
i really don't care anymore

me: I don't get why he isn't willing to try and improve things if he knows you want out

Nicole: beucase his family told hime that when you get marriend its forever even if the other wants out.... they don't believe in divorces
i better get going

me: Before you go
Let me just give you this list

1. Keep your sense of humor, no matter what
2. Create a purpose, a focus, and never take your eyes off it
3. Figure out what's important to you. What's really important
4. Be open. Try anything. You never know
5. Love. You need love. Tons of it. A shitload of love
6. Sometimes you need to be selfish
7. You need support. You're in this alone, but you can't fight it alone
8. The most precious thing you have is time. Don't waste it


Nicole: Hey buddy
me: howdy
Nicole: Nothing
Wanted ice cream
me: seriously.
you went out for ice cream?
Nicole: Ummm no...
I went to rite aid and they didn't have the kind I wanted
me: Good.
2 nuggets of advice I got from metal records.
Tomorrow belongs to no one and Yesterday don't mean shit
Nicole: K
I'm listening to Phil collins
me: You got 5 months, it's not getting further away.
Genesis was better dude.
Nicole: I know
If I want to get into my old bikini I gotta buckle down
me: Take a picture of you in it now haha
Nicole: No!
me: Put it in on your bathroom mirror, fridge and other places you pass frequently
Nicole: That would make me sad I would probably cry
Ashes missed me
me: But not Jaxx?
Nicole: No we don't like that dog
Sent at 8:50 PM on Tuesday
Nicole: So what are you unto?
Up to?
me: watching my cat bathe herself, listening to music via youtube, chatting with you and Jansen
Mainly with you.
So the ipad, is it a touchscreen qwerty keyboard?
Nicole: Umm yes, idk what you mean?
Jansen no want to be your friend?
me: The keyboard is integrated in the touchscreen functionality, right?
Nicole: Yea
me: And the keys are laid out like a normal keyboard with QWERTY in the upper left?
Yeah he's half-assing being my friend.
Nicole: I'll bring it over so you can see it
And yes qwerty is in the upper left corner
Tell him to be your full friend and not to half-ass it
me: K, now you know something nerdy
Nicole: That's funny I never ever noticed that
Sent at 8:56 PM on Tuesday
me: SO aside from that techno-wizardry, what did you get from St. Nick?
Nicole: Nothing really
A picture frame, a bracelet a purse, and a new coat
And a new back pack
What about you?
Nothing ok
me: the gift card, some clothes that I am planning to return.
Nicole: Why are you going to return them?
me: Another giftcard which I couldn't use for what I wanted to use it for
Nicole: Oh
Are the clothes gay?
me: The pants are too small and I don't like the shirt
And the other shirt is meh
I have a jacket so I don't need a thick sweater
Nicole: The wintergreen jacket?
me: Yes.
Nicole: Lol
me: It works.
Nicole: It seems to thin though
me: It's made in America damnit.
Try it on tomorrow
It works.
Nicole: Oh, sorry!
Ok so what time should I come over?
me: i don't care.
Nicole: Ok
Are you still going to go to wildomar?
me: I would guess before 10 is probably a bad idea.
I don't know
Nicole: Ok it doesn't matter I'll leave like later then
me: my weather forecase says 100% chance of rain tonight.
Partly cloudy tomorrow, but no rain.
I don't know if we'll be going to SRP
But I think it would be nice since the vernal pools will probably have some water in them now
Nicole: Ok we could just hang out and play games!
Vernal pools?
Sent at 9:04 PM on Tuesday
me: http://tchester.org/srp/vp/index.html
Nicole: I saw them
me: K
Nicole: Pretty cool
me: What time do you eat?
Nicole: I like going to Dana point to the tide pools
Ummmm for lunch?
me: Yeah I guess.
Nicole: Like 1230 or 1. Doesn't really matter
me: k
Nicole: You know something
me: I know quite a few somethings.
Which something are you interested in?
Nicole: It's hard being a girl ......
I wish I didn't have feelings...
me: About?
Nicole: Love
Love is weird
I guess.. Idk
me: Do tell
I don't want to make more of an ass of myself than I already have.
That is why I am reserved.
I like you, but I don't say anything because I don't want to solidify anything and make things worse for you.
Nicole: Lol
Like
Obviously iM married but I like you A Lot.... And would rather be away from Josh... But I do care for him... He is a good guy.
We just don't mesh well
me: I mean yeah, you're great, fun to be around, I like all we've shared, but I don't know if I'd say love. I don't get those butterfly jitters, maybe it's an age thing? Or I am just so neurotic about relationships now.
This is not meant to harm you.
Nicole: No yea..... I like you too... And whe
me: I don't want to be the scab on your emotional life
Nicole: When I met Josh I had to be around him everyday he knows everything about me
And when were together alone we are good.... But sometimes our relationshipnis shaky
Your not....
Always on the bright side I like hotdogs
Anyways*
me: hot dogs?
Nicole: I know Josh and I
Disregard that
Yes, hot dogs.
I like them...
You might think that they are gross.
me: Bottom of the barrel hot dogs, yeah pretty gross.
Nicole: Fuck off
Jk
me: Hand cased delicatessan hot dogs and sausages, pretty decent fair.
Like it's not the quantity or sum of its parts so much but the quality.
Nicole: Oh
me: If someone takes pride in what they do, I will be interested in it.
Nicole: Lol
Col
me: Franchises and chains are so sterile, there's nothing unique about them
And it's just a job to everyone working there
There is no personal stake in it
Nicole: Yea, I guess. I don't really know
me: At least at the places we go to they depend on a customer and show they care
Nicole: True.
me: In some aspect by engaging with them or crafting a quality meal
Nicole: YOU'RE MY PAL CHAMP
Sent at 9:20 PM on Tuesday
me: The whole business model of fast food is all wrong.
Nicole: HMM. No response:(
me: Food is something very intimate and they've ruined that and our culture has just accepted that drivel.
No you're my pal and that's the way it's going to be, champ.
Nicole: Your very passionate about food
me: Well think about it
We are only here to consume and produce.
Might as well try and get the most out of food and sex.
Nicole: Yea
Yea I can see that
Sent at 9:24 PM on Tuesday
me: I lacked both of those for 6 months.
You develop a respect for things.
Nicole: Yea I forget about that sometimes
me: I am just trying not to take things for granted anymore.
Nicole: Yea
me: That list I gave you
That's sort of my mission objective.
Nicole: Oh that's cool
me: It's from Robert Schimmel.
Nicole: Are you my friend?
me: Yes
Nicole: K
me: Of course
Nicole: :)
Good
I heart Gwen stefani
me: I spent a lot of time pondering quality
So I am kind of just passionate about that in general
Nicole: Yea, you're a pretty passionate guy
me: Like if you're going to take the time to do something, do a good job or fuck off.
Nicole: That's good
Lol
Yea fuck off!
me: That's why I am so up in my head
I can't let myself learn a task
Nicole: Ooooohhhh.... That's why..... Duh!,
me: I try it and it's like "Well I suck, lets not do that again"
Nicole: ,.haha
me: And I shut down.
Nicole: I know one thing you don't suck at, well, maybe at first you did.
me: I have to buck it and recognize nothing is as perfect as I like to think
Nicole: ;)
me: I was just caught in the moment.
The first one should be stricken from the record and the freeze tag.
Nicole: Everyone sucks the first time.
me: Hahah
Nicole: Remember when you almost broke it and i screamed
That was scary
me: Broke....?
I don't remember
We should do arts and crafts tomorrow lol
Nicole: My thing closed
You almost broke your weiner
me: https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCtCd1o_OHs7H8rdv-HF08NNY3jyqJBDCm2xao_q-RqXXZNQl59xpkIvucwtnYiPHh91_LSANMT_jyrcIi_957V7CaV68w7KLAA5USwpTpMVRRWJouMWck-giyQxE-0JK9ioldoTJm5N0/s1600/motogp-f1races-Valentino-Rossi.jpg
Hahah
Hahah
Nicole: Is that the face your making
me: Yeah now
Nicole: Did that hurt you?
me: At the time I was just looking for a picture of Valentino Rossi
um
Nicole: Haha
me: Maybe?
It wasn't terrible.
I mean we didn't lose pace or anything
I don't remember
Nicole: Oh k goood
I'm very proud of you
. Your learning so much
me: I was in a fugue state
Nicole: Lol
I enjoy having sex with you.
me: It's a barrel of monkeys.
Nicole: Anyways.........
What is. Our intimate times?
me: yeah
Nicole: You enjoy it?
me: You said you enjoy having sex, that's the image that came to mind.
I don't think I let myself enjoy it
I am still learning how to swim.
Nicole: R
Lol
Thtas funny
Is it fun at least?
me: Ask me after the next time
Nicole: What geez... Now i feel like shit. You shouldn't stay stuff like that...
You're lucky were friends.... Because if i were a regular girl she wouldn't talk to you again.... Seriously
me: I don't know
Nicole: K
me: I am just like in the moment
To be completely honest
I am concerned about doing a good job.
Nicole: I understand it's ok buddy
me: I guess I am very German, haha
Nicole: Oh god
Weirdo
Jk
Your very emotionless.... Although I have seen your sensitive side...
me: Well it's because you're very rough and tumble. That's just not who I am.
Nicole: Like when you said I had something on my face and you touched my nose with a kiss.... That was sweet.
Sorry... I'll slow it down,k
me: No
Nicole: I'm getting sleepy
me: then it's not anything of interest for you
And it will just be a day long grind fest
Nicole: Lol
You same some funny shit!
Say*
I'm gonna go to sleep I'll see you tomorrow k
me: Night
Nicole: Good night